maybe we were meant to be

 My wish for the year is to be able to never stop loving a healthy and happy you.

Happy Birthday dear It didn't seem that long since I last hold you tightly in my arms, on your birthday. Because you have been on my mind every single moment.  They say time is the greatest equaliser but I believe we didn't meet by accident. Our paths are meant to cross for a reason.  We were tandems you and I. Our  journey together was short but one of a kind. One full of joyful banter, thoughtful discussions and priceless moments which cannot be sold, bought or forgotten.  All the exchanges we had, traveling plans we made, good memories we collected, shared and treasured, they were lovely things that will always remain etched in my mind. They are pieces of us that no one can ever take away.  I can’t picture a life without you as my lover even though I’m living in it for the past  2 years. 731 days. 17,544 hours. The act of missing you feels almost like I have a blindfold over my eyes and where there is simply just darkness. I miss you so much and I w...

  It’s been one year.  One year since everything changed.  One year since a light went out in my life.  It’s been one year since I’ve seen you, one year since I’ve hugged you. One year later, and I still miss you every day.  You still cross my mind in all of the moments in which I least expect it, and all in all of the moments that I most expect it. I’ve also learned that our meaningful memories are not specific events. Our most meaningful memories are feelings.  I still wish I could run to you and a part of me is glad that COVID prevents traveling, acting as the great equalizer.  I still wish I could give you a huge hug and tell you that I love you. I still wish these things with all of my heart. But just as you told me to do, I’m going to try my hardest to make this life as beautiful as I can for the both of us.  Just as you wanted, I’m going to do my best to truly make the most of this life. 

1) reading a book monthly (targeting a Chinese book soon) 2) stretching (hopefully daily) in bed 3) bringing music into my showers 4) sleeping on the left of the bed 5) using my own towels at gym / hotels 6) appreciating classical guitars & piano pieces 7) Love lamb now more than beef & sake as much as whisky P.S. still working on that blue cheese 🧀 and more veggies

I miss you. I miss everything you did for me.  I miss the little things, I thought we’d have more time together.  I recalled sharing with you when we were together, when I was inside of you, that I wish time could stand still at that moment. But that’s the funny thing with time: it only moves forward. I wish I could too; move forward and move on. Forget everything. Be happy. I guess it’s easier said than done. I’ll never stop missing the hunger I felt for you. My desire for you roared through my entire being, leaving me feeling satiated from my cravings for you alone.  In your vulnerableness, you sustained me, filling my cup until it overflowed with pure estascy. When you kissed me, you quelled my emptiness with your whole heart, letting our corrosive love burst. I’ll never stop missing the way you held me. You wrapped me in your arms, drawing me into you as if you never wanted to let me go.  With every brush against my skin, you consumed me, my ...

When I say I miss you, what I mean is that, I see you. When I say I miss you, what I mean is that, I dream of you. When I say I miss you, what I mean is that, I’m wishing. When I say I miss you, what I mean is that, I’m happy. When I say I miss you, what I mean is that, I crave you. When I say I miss you, what I mean is that, I remember you. And did I tell you that when I say I miss you, what I mean is that, I need you because I love you?  I honestly love you. I really do. And I won’t stop missing you. P.S. When I say I miss you, everything little thing reminds me of you.